I cry a lot, almost two or more times per day?

Do you have any friends? If you do there always up for listening. You could join a group or take classes or try to get put there to meet people. What you really need to do is live by the phrase "live each day like it's your last" do you really wanna die wording about dieing? No. And a boyfriend in the end well just make you feel less loved. Try for friends. And don't you have a family member to talk to. If you don't feel comfortable talking to them go to a therapist of some sort. And just rembere everything your going through well make you a stronger person. God has a plan and a reason for everything. And it's not the end if everything is not okay.